Tears.

I found myself crying at the end of last night’s dress rehearsal. Our last one. I am a highly emotional person but it’s a very difficult thing to bring me to tears and yet there I was with a river streaming down my face. To the RENT Cast: You guys will never understand or comprehend how much EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU mean to me. Something large. This is my freshmen year, meaning I left my family for the first time and it was hard but never did I expect I would find another one that means so much to me. I have a connection to so many of you. And last night all I could think was that our hard work is paying off and that time does fly and then moments die. People move on and I’ve never been very good at moving on. Melancholy is the word I’d used to describe this painfully sad, yet beautiful emotion I get in my chest when we do our curtain call and run off stage. Each show brings us one step closer to the end. And I know we have yet to begin, but we shall and with each beginning there is an end. Yet, let me not be so melodramatic (though I suppose I am a theatre person). I want to say that I am happy to have met each of you and to have had you affect my life in some way and I hope that I was fortunate enough to do the same. The show does teach us that it’s not about the end, it’s about the moment, the experience. This has been a great one and it will continue to be so, I am sure. Maybe we can’t all live the Bohemian life but we can certainly cheerish the one we have. I love you guys. Honestly, I do, because love is a lot broader than we think it is and yes, it is a strong word but it has many meanings. And I do love you. Remember that weeks from now when I’m walking by and I wave or stop for a chat. Remember that we all had this connection. We should forget regret, but hopefully, not each other.

And to Gregg, to Chris, to Sam, to Toby, to Jon, to Alicia, to Will, to Tech, To the Audience and all who were and are involved in any way I just have to say; Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for giving me this chance, thank you for seeing something in me, thank you for helping me grow, thank you for helping me understand, thank you for developing my art and showing me I have a long way to go, thank you for helping, thank you for letting our voices be heard (in so many forms of the phrase), thank you for shining the spot light on us, thank you for the support, thank you for the smooth transitions, thank you for the food, thank you for coming to see the show, and thank you for being there in all these ways and much more. Thank you.

Okay, I’m done, but it’s just beginning.

No Day But Today

This is it. Opening night. Looking at the countdown and seeing “0 days” makes it so real. Everything we’ve worked so hard for is coming to fruition tonight. Opening night is already sold out! I can’t wait! There’s literally nothing like the feeling I get when we’re all on stage together singing Seasons Of Love. Kelly and Pietro’s solos are so powerfully amazing. I can’t wait. I’m literally shaking with excitement. Less than 10 hours now. Are you ready?

Recreate.

I’ve been thinking about it for awhile and I’ve decided I’ll share with YOU, a poem I wrote last year at some unhappy, angry moment of my life. I don’t usually write poetry. I don’t believe I’m good enough, nor worthy. But this is:

How Human
How miserable…horrid…and human
How happy…lovely…and human
How morbid…useless…and human
How hopeful…faithful…and human
How vile…cruel…sick and human
How truthful…generous…silly and human
How envious…prideful…careful and human
How lustful…crazy…unique and human
How vengeful, passionate
How good and bad,
How courageous and cowardly,
How beautiful and hideous
How human to be human and not know it
not to feel it or to sense it or to hate it,
yet to want it.
Oh how human of us to be a bit of everything,
but animal enough of us to let some things
rule us and make us.
Oh how human.

So that’s it, my one diamond in the rubble. I’m sharing this because I see this and I think about how we shouldn’t let one thing rule us. We have to accept the many faces we have. We have to learn that the world really isn’t just black and white. It’s not simply gay and straight. We’re all so complex. We are all so human. It’s our one bond. The thing that connects us all to each other. Take of it as you will, make of it as you should. Recreate.
Okay, I’m done. Just for now.

RENT Opens Thursday 8:00pm

RENT Opens in Klein Theatre this Thursday, November 3rd at 8:00pm and runs through November 20, Thursday – Saturday at 8pm and Sunday at 2pm

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It was us, baby, who were the lucky ones.

So, I don’t know how many people of the RENT production know this, but I have recently lost my Uncle Todd to stomach cancer. He was diagnosed a week before my high school graduation and I visited my aunt and uncle everyday of summer that I could. The reason I am telling this story is because he passed the day after RENT auditions. He is such an inspiration and a huge reason why I decided to audition. That decision to audition is one of the greatest decisions I have ever made. Everyone I have met has been so nice and thrive to form a family. Through this whole rehearsal process I have noticed my confidence slowly coming back together and I can only thank every talented person that I have met. Yesterday during our run through, when we got to the song “I’ll Cover You – Reprise”, I started to tear up. Not because of how sad every character is that Angel has died, but because every character is reminded how lucky they are that they knew Angel. And that is exactly how I feel towards my Uncle Todd’s passing. Not sad and full of melancholy, but happy that I knew him and have grown from knowing him. Not only do I feel lucky for knowing him, but I am also lucky that I got to meet everyone that has had a part in the making of this production. Thank you helping me get back on my feet after such a difficult time. I hope my family will be as touched as I am when they come to see the show.